Sunday, September 19, 2004

reluctantly going where no man may go

so dostoevsky says, "a man who lies to himself and listens to his own lie comes to a point where he does not discern any truth either in himelf or anywhere around him." and again, "it's always like that with holy fools: they cross themselves before a tavern and cast stones at the temple. your elder is the same: he drives the just man out with a stick and bows at the murderer's feet."

later on he describes how a particularly debauched character would sometimes wake his servant in the night just to be in the presence of a good man.

i had insomnia for a few months. i remember feeling the same urge and comfort lying next to laura.


2 comments:

brad said...

i am obsessive enough to comment on my own blog. sorry for all the "man" language. sorry for giving you such a hard time about this, geoff. you have done a lot of work for a potentially cool thing. it is a risk and for that i applaud you.

geoff said...

thanks brad.

about dostoevsky....i dare say we are all recovering lie-tellers so how do we get back to knowing truth from lies? perhaps one way is to be 'in the presence of a good person.' namely Jesus. i hope there is a healing that can happen.
as for the holy fool, i'd like to be one (i think).
shalom.